I'm On My Period...

I just have to get this off my chest... I wanna punch somebody. Nobody specifically, I'm just in one of those ticked off moods... hah, surprising how a "CHRISTIAN" would ever want to lose their cool, huh? Oh yeah, Spiritually Anointed doesn't mean Spiritually Perfect. I'm just really at my wit's end. 

This usually happens about once a month - so call it MY period. If I don't freak out over something that's pressuring me, I've missed my period, which unlike the case with women, I'm not worried about it.  

Man, you know the story: I'm a 25 year ol' douche living at home with mom and dad, making just about 12 bucks an hour at a job that makes me feel like a hardworking stiff, having to take shots from nasty, rude red necks from da durrty south... Being a married man living at home, I'm constantly having to go between my parents and wife to at least TRY to keep everyone happy so no misunderstandings are crossed... AND I have a teenage sister who hides in her bedroom talking to boys on her cell... plus, I mentioned teenage girl. Teenage girl vs emotional wife = well, you get the picture.

Then I run a record label, my LOVE, my PASSION... everything about it is pure and beautiful... the only problem is, if I'm not on my grind trying to time and time again push my all into this to try and get people to believe in me, I lose all their faith and they move on to someone or someones who has it just a little bit more together than me... for example, WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO MY FANBASE?!?! 

When it comes to the label and music, it really is God's deal. If my fans are gone, that's fine. I don't sweat it nearly as much as someone who's more concerned about getting recognized for the simple fact that if God wants me to be big and famous, He will. Don't you think it's possible? 

[Continued on Part 2...]